Transforming the Shame in Our Sickness .

Today I was told at a little dinner fathering , that we are bombing , still with a vengeance , the Middle East . They said yet again. 

I thought .. “Did it ever stop ? “

I see a lot of shadows in the air these days. 

It is hard to dodge them. 
They creep in and squeeze the shit out of my heart. 

We are all rising above these lower tendencies to be the true light we are born to be. I can say , that in my lifetime , I have looked at some of the darkest thoughts invoked by man. Yes awful , unbelievable stuff , and I can testify in saying yet it does and can happen .  There are those of you nodding right now saying. Yes . And PTSD is the gift you get once you have survived loves call and then the surrender. What else can you do ? Tell me ? Get angry and feed the fire . Get educated , get enlightened. It is coming and it does belong to all of us.  The pain this planet is experiencing. This is why we must invoke love and the sunlight and the other part of our existence the Real eternal part not the temporary shadow part of life. I invoke light and love and the sound of celestial awakening. Let it be now. 

Reality has been quite a spin for me in my lifetime , teaching me forgiveness and humility over and over again and again. Kicking and crying and bowing and thanking.. all of the stages of surrender.. 

I ask to grow in the constant awareness of the Divine Goodness in all things. 

True;  I do say this , In clarity and Acceptance that I deserve what we all deserve. Love Real Live Love. 

This is what I want, and yet the state of " things"  does makes me sad. 

It makes me very sad. 

I struggle harder every day to create my life's picture divine .

If one person is weeping. I am weeping , we all are weeping, yet we all are laughing as well.  It has to all be happening. The real part is in the love. and the resolution of its power. 

I invoke laughter and read the scriptures and hold thoughts of unity in love and wait for a cosmic miracle to happen for all of us. We can evoke it. We just have to continue to try and to remind each other to do it. Ask for help and surrender all you think is true and right to what you feel and know is true and right. Big difference.

I see that these days , are days when we have such a miraculous ability to heal and cure and love people and on the direct opposite side we can be embarrassed when we see ourselves wiping off the slime of envy or anger or resentment , ignorance is very expert at that. 

It is ignorance that has covered me in the deepest of darkest of ignorance.  

Finding myself …. “ Feeling Ego As Real “.

Free will says it has to be this way.  You have to choose for yourself. 
What do you want ? Ask for it. Peace and healing and unity. 
I do.

I say we write our own rules on love. 
I am rewriting mine. 

I want love truth beauty and wisdom . I want to be a vessel of unconditional love. 

I want to be feel and live Love to the extent that I am always ready to give more of this unconditional and unstoppable essence . 

My wish is to stay grounded and stand strong in my spiritual practice and believe with certainty everyday, that all life is genuinely good. The only surprises in my life are ones filled with joy of some kind or another. 

We have the ability to hold this principle of being starlight from the sun. 

Because we are.
We are the children of the Sun . 

I am a Daughter of Ra 

I am the divine child of Isis.  

This is what we all should be saying in gratitude every day. 

I want more of this kind of sunlight in my life.  I want to dance under her starry crown and touch the hem of her robe on the dark , beautiful , soft ,velvet dark sky. 

I want to be part of that moonlit loving embrace ,

Moon light and Star Light are refections of the Sun that shines all the time…. Even when we are not looking ,  it is as constant as the love I want for all men. 

Tonight I heard there is deep war and more death and frightened children, all tired and hungry and in poor health. I hear mothers crying and fathers are in rage. We all are in a mixture of PTSD , Fear, Anger Bobbling in seething distrust. Like wolves walking in circles around each other.

It creeps me out.

I still forever will have the choice how to evoke my life.

If it requires forgiveness

If it requires truly viewing from the soul 

It may be due to the fact that all of this is just the last of all we have left .

 Because of this ,  I remind all of you and confirm to the rest,  this true fact that we all have the capacity to evoke peace .  We just have to do it. 

Let it begin in ourselves , 

May we relish it , feed from that joy and share the abundance of it with others.

In our deepest anger

In our darkest rage

In our bottomless fear and hunger 

In our most desperate of sorrow and pain.

I am finding as I grow stronger and healthier that this shame in sickness is moving away as well. It can bind you and blind you and literally do you in. Transform it and return it to Love . This is where it bagan and will end. In Love. 

May this light in our heart continue to burn bright 

Reminding of us our true home , our true purpose

To Love.

Time is short 

Life is our masterpiece

Our breath is our blessing.

I send my heart out residing in this sincere prayer for peace to whomever and whatever will hear it , or feel it .. be them surrounded by others or feeling empty and alone, .. Take this prayer and enhance it,  co - create with it and explore the Grace in it. Keep it alive . It is in you and in all of us to kindle our Grace and relationship to each other. 

It is clean and simple.

Let peace begin with me. 

I am sunlight bright and eternal

I am the foundation of truth that I seek

I AM

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